Darkness Until Dawn

     The fool acts with limited information. 

  Anyways I feel like its better to keep distance until the smoke clears.

  See the blue is where the implant is and the purple arrow points to the incision.

     Spidey making new friends via social media. Helps me feel connected. Until I find something to say that doesnt seem to ruffle feathers, I just make new friends quietly.

     Adsense refuses to place ads. Says my content isn't deep enough. I think thats bullshit. This is my life! Not deep? I don't get it. It's getting views. They should just take that for what it is. I'll make my own ads. See above. 

     Sometimes, hard times are necessary. It helps to give people perspective on what is truly important. It helps to drive people forward. Like when leaves had to go away. It helped me to make change. It helped me to start seeing some of the things that were not right in my life. Sometimes, being alone is necessary, too. Helps people to focus. for me, I feel like I tried to be there for the kids. They kept me going sometimes. Them, and people like Elle. I don't worry so much about Prichards. Or McClean. I worry what's going to happen down here. Where I am. But I feel like I need some isolation. So that I know what to focus on. I need to figure out how to do this differently. My life has seemed so chaotic and lacking in structure. So driven. So much activity with little rhyme or reason. Less activity, more purpose. 

If I meet the right people I might be able to relax a little. If I get this job, I might breathe a little easier. If two or more people decide to join this advocacy group, I might be able to do something positive.