Darkness Until Dawn

     This medical stuff is absolutely insane on its own. I've got more lab tests and doctors and visits, and my life revolves around this stuff. Keytones, CO2, it doesn't even have to be labels or drugs, just the basic lab results are something of their own. Eating regularly, using the CPAP, avoiding dust... talking just isn't easy any way you put it. My energy is not that high. Maybe it looks it. It's not.       This morning it's my liver that I'm noticing. Right foot is still a little funky. I've been told I'm focusing on the problems. The CPAP and the eating and the natural stuff. That's the solutions. The meds... the antidepressants help. Seroquel seems to help. I've got to be careful with my body. I still don't see how Gateway or Phoenix is going to help with this. There's a lot of medical that neither place would ever address.      T he doctors are enough to keep up with. I don't know exactly how the VNS change factors in. if it...

     At the ER I had low CO2 levels. that doesn't happen unless you're not getting enough oxygen. I've had trouble using the CPAP machine. Hallucinations can result from low oxygen levels. Or not eating enough. Whatever the initial cause was, I think the low CO2 levels mean more then the rest of what they found. I've gotten a lot of heat for the CPAP machine. Hospitals don't like it. Centers don't like it. It takes maintenance, it is loud, it is messy with the cables and tubes. I wasn't using it enough. the losses of consciousness, the hallucinations... I need to eat more and to use the CPAP more. My body's not that strong.