Darkness Until Dawn

Come to think of it, when a healthcare professional said my parents were harmful, that person was right. Pushing medical care i did not want or need. Munchausen Byproxy. Not that I've been diagnosed. But it has similarities. I've seen it with other people. Keep in mind this is from the perspective of a traumatized and improperly medicated person. My perspective is thus biased. I've had a difficult time. 

  Landed me in the ER

 

 

  I do remember arguing. Family members. Providers. Hospitals. Arguing. Arguing over my care.  Strange thing to argue about. Atlanta said No. Massachusetts took the Clozaril and ran with it. I hate that drug. Charleston and Anderson chipped in some rTMS. Memorial went all in with VNS. Springbrook was like wha?

 

 

     Now where was I? Ah yes, my women. Spidey hab a full team almost. Dey take good care. Today, Spidey saw Molly, Brittany MD, and Mo. There's a Matt around. There's a new crop of intern. But I haven't met her. Then there's Artstick. I don't think Elly's on the team ennymore.       Of course Elle is gone. Leaves is still out there somewherez. Jenn's working for Elly. The allergy ladies. I see the one with the GI doc soon. I'm getting the new ENT, new dentist. Gotta see the eye doc. There's coffee and the other Jenn. There's a Psychiatry PA. The gals down at the Internist. Busy, busy. Oh, the neurologist. Who's more then happy to defer to the others, but then she just monitors my device.       Then I still have the sleep specialist at Anmed. I need to pick up some l-theanine. The nighttime one helps, but I need some for the day that doesn't have melatonin in it. Now I'm looking at getting an assistant or a body double. Well staffed...

  Enjoy!

  Dey Gwow up so slow...

Spidey got a liddle off twack...

Angry got tired of MIP. Angry decided group therapy online. They invited me back. Maybe Arson will set me on fire. I think he wants to.

The bystander effect is the name for wh en someone is in danger and there are witnesses that do not intervene.  factors in this phenonyma include diffusion of responsibility and the need to behave in correct  and socially acceptable ways.   Kitty Genovese  was murdered in Queens, New York, in 1964 while several of her neighbors looked on. No one intervened until it was too late. Latané and Darley (1970) Five step decision making process: Notice the event and act (or are in a hurry and not notice). Interpret the situation as an emergency and act (or assume that as others are not acting, it is not an emergency). Assume responsibility and act (or assume that others will do this). Know what to do (or not have the skills necessary to help). Decide to help (or worry about danger, legislation, embarrassment, etc.).      Evaluation apprehension (fear of being publically judge...

Spidey a liddle dark. Di sun rising doh...

A warm shout out to the Good Eggs... the ones with Common Sense. 

"Another head hangs lowly Child is slowly taken And the violence caused such silence Who are we mistaken?" But you see it's not we It's not M Y... prismily In my head, tears are shed They are FIGHTING With their PILLS  and their PADS And look now, we're depressed! With our meds, With our meds They are cryin' In ERs, ICUs... Can you see... ?? What's in your meds??? in your meds??? Zombies? Another brother breakin' Docs are taking over When the violence causes SILENCE We must be mistaken. It's the same ICU Since I last came to you. In my head, hospital beds They're still fightin'! With their pills and their tests And their ECTs, less and less They are TRYIN' In my head... hospital beds Zombie, zombie, zombie, hey, hey What's in your head, in your head Zombie, zombie, zombie, hey, hey, hey Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh Hey, oh, ya, ya-a   25 years since that first coma in the ICU.

Enmeshment, in a psychological context, refers to a blurring of boundaries between people, often family members, leading to over-dependence and a lack of individuality . This can result in difficulties with autonomy and independence, impacting family dynamics and relationships.  Key aspects of enmeshment: Blurred Boundaries: Enmeshed relationships lack clear personal boundaries, making it difficult for individuals to distinguish their own needs, feelings, and boundaries from those of others.  Over-involvement: Family members become overly involved in each other's lives, often to the detriment of their own autonomy and personal development.  Lack of Autonomy: Enmeshment can lead to a loss of individual identity and the inability to make independent decisions or pursue personal interests.  Over-dependence: Individuals in enmeshed relationships may become overly dependent on others for emotional support, validation, or guidance .  Examples: A parent who constantly...

Almost ready to mail taxes. I overpaid. Rather ridiculously. I have 3 pieces of furniture to assemble. Some picking up to do. Father's day is coming up. Thank God. Am I right?

     Countertransference is an unconscious effect in mental health relationships, and neither the clinician nor the client realizes it is happening. It serves as an important reminder that mental health professionals are human too, with their own biases, history, and emotions that can influence their thoughts and reactions to clients.      In a mental health session, a client might remind the professional of someone or something from their past or present. Consequently, the clinician might unconsciously treat the client in an emotionally charged or biased manner. Clinicians must be aware of countertransference at all times and actively work to acknowledge and manage it in their practice. Countertransference in mental health refers to the emotional reactions, biases, or perceptions a professional may have towards a client, influenced by the professional's personal experiences, unconscious feelings, or issues. It can affect the therapeutic relationship and tr...