Darkness Until Dawn

Anyways. So, meds are not the ultimate solution Diagnoses are not the ultimate solution. Genetics and chemicals? Well, I'm gonna go back to the nature vs nuture. All of these disorders? Well people like to look for answers or find causes or demons. Some people jump to look at their genes... others find a chemical or food or an environmental factor such as electronic devices or the weather... History plays a role, in combination with the rest. I do not doubt that any of the disorders are not "real". They are complex. Autism, ADHD, Depression of whatever type, and Dissociation. The thing I noticed about Covid was how psychological it became. People did die. I tested positive at one point. For me it was like a mild flu. But I saw people thinking they had it when they didn't, time after time. The thing that lasted was that autism spectrum seemed to become more widely known. I had to think about that.  ADHD... I've seen so often, parents of kids with ADHD, they get foc...

So, I've been thinking more about boundaries and minding one's own business. I used to not have the slightest understanding of boundaries. I applied rules. Simplistic ones. Then I came off Clozaril and my feelings opened up. Man. Coming off Minipress was an extremely frightening experience. Shit got epically real in all the wrong ways. Do not ever take that red pill. Don't do it. I'm telling you. Those things are highly dangerous.  Coming off Clozaril was much different. It was like leaving the matrix and seeing reality for the first time. Both the internal reality and the external. Oh, Prichards was angry. He was no longer God. He was also afraid. He was afraid for the world to see what he had created. And then everyone was afraid. I didn't like what I saw in many cases. People didn't like that I could see. I could see the fakeness. I could see the façades. I could see the corruption. I could see the dirt, and the ugliness. Oh they came up with all sorts of nam...