Darkness Until Dawn

Mother's day is coming up. It will be so nice to focus on a positive theme. I feel a little less tense knowing that the force medicators have eyes on them from people as varied as not just the county and state agencies they might think they can control but also a few concerned persons from the Governor's office and the FBI. It gives me some peace of mind. Allows everyone to focus on celebrating and not insulting, threatening, demonizing, manipulating, lying, cheating, overmedicating, or otherwise causing trouble. When people are God awful towards one another, it stresses people out. Damages the mind. Makes them anxious and angry. Bipolar like. Borderline like. PTSD like. South Carolina doesn't need that BS.  So I want to wish everyone a fantastic mother's day. Be kind to your family. Don't force anyone to file any reports, file lawsuits, anything like that.  To all you mothers out there, God Bless.

     Spidey kneads to take time off. Go for a crawl. Tink about life choices. Too many humans trying to step on me. Need to get leggy. Spidey sniffing some RAID on di sly. Build up immunity.

There was a psychiatrist who did try to say something. Dr. Findmine in Atlanta. I remember because my family didn't like him. He told them what they didn't want to hear. It wasn't a matter of just the right medication. More complicated then that. Social or environmental problems.

Antipsychotics Risperidone Quetiapine Haldol Thorazine Zyprexa Clozapine Rexulti  FANAPT Latuda Vraylar Abilify Caplyta Saphris Mood Stabilizers  Lithium Depakote Tegretol Trileptal... Antidepressants  Too many to list Anxiety Ativan Traxene  Klonopin Gabapentin Baclophen... Offlabel Aricept  Namenda Mirapex Amantadine Nuvigil Provigil... PTSD Minipress/Prazosin Propranolol Mirtazapine  Spravato Ketamine Adhd Alpha blockers Beta blockers Stimulants, almost every single one... long acting, short acting, adderall and methyl The list is endless. Check the records.  The house was full of pills. Pills everywhere. Everywhere.

Vell, Im flattered. Zey thought of old vlad. Who put you up to it? Was it the tent? Coffee? Arson? Who figured it out? You realize im not coming for the meds, yes? I'd donate blood but I'm not sure if that's a good idea. Last time i fell in love with the phlebotmist. Nearly faints at the sight of me now. But I'll take a pint. You don't mind if I stay out of sight for a few years? Too much attention.

See what I figure is, whatever the alphabet soup of psych dx's does or does not mean, the physical dx's are my primary concern.  For someone with that many dx's, it would appear Western medicine has run amuck. Given that this has attracted a lot of attention... it's not just a me problem. There are people asking questions about how this happened. They want to keep people safe. So I just let them know my concerns. And then others can decide what adjustments might need to be made. So then the community is safer. What worries me is some of this borders on criminal. And I don't get to decide. So these other people... they talk to other people, they look at records, maybe an expert or two... understand what went wrong, if anyone else was affected, that sort of thing. There's enough social workers, LPCs, shrinks, mds, and politicians that have learned enough to want to know what happened. So I'm trying to focus on here and now and keep level headed while I think t...

Now I'm wondering who's thinking these things up because they are getting very clever. Watching the website. Using the records. Coordinating. It's very clever.  I know so many of them. But you're watching the website. And you saw the dear healthcare worker. And I told only one person about that message. And that person told someone at the hospital. Or maybe the hospital figured it out. Well anyways. The discharge nurse name is on the records. And you know I don't trust those doctors anymore. You know I trust the nurses. And what? Because she was blonde? Small didn't work, so now the blonde nurse. Very clever. Oh, now it's like, we'll tell him the discharge nurse wants him to have these meds suddenly. No thanks. burn or restock. If there are really meds. I have the meds I need.       I want to resolve this issue with the old guard. The script happy dinosaurs. I guess it's nice to be heard though. Tell Elle I said hi. We need to see other people guys. ...