Darkness Until Dawn

You ask me if I love you   And I choke on my reply I'd rather hurt you, honestly Than mislead you with a lie And who am I to judge you On what you say or do? I'm only just beginning To see the real you And sometimes when we touch The honesty's too much And I have to close my eyes and hide I wanna hold you 'til I die 'Til we both break down and cry I wanna hold you 'Til the fear in me subsides Romance and all its strategy Leaves me battling with my pride But through the insecurity Some tenderness survives I'm just another writer Still trapped within my truth A hesitant prize fighter Still trapped within my youth Sometimes when we touch The honesty's too much And I have to close my eyes and hide I wanna hold you 'til I die 'Til we both break down and cry I wanna hold you 'Til the fear in me subsides At times I'd like to break you And drive you to your knees At times I'd ...

Well, the hospital talked to the doctor talked to the internist talked to the counselor talked to the... wait? What's on the chart? Let's see... Blood Pressure, 135/84 (Not bad!) Pulse 68 (Great!) Weight: gained a couple pounds back Problem List: (This is the funny part) Annual wellness exam (As if that is useful) Long term use of drug (they're called prescriptions. You wrote them) Chronic midline backpain without sciatica (as if that is unusual) GERD (from taking clozaril and eating too much plus stress) High risk medication use (kinda repetitive) Severe episode of Recurrent major depressive disorder, WITHOUT psychotic features) Sleep apnea, Obstructive (I don't sleep so good. Thanks, Clozaril weight gain plus stress) Deviated nasal septum (from an impact) Chronic Idiopathic constipation (gotta love this terminology) Auditory processing Disorder (Don't hear so great) GERD with esophagitis (As if that wasn't mentioned above) Treatment resistant DEPRESSION (they ...