Darkness Until Dawn

I am resolving to exercise more and communicate better and continue to take better care of my health with improved boundaries. This has gotten entirely too complicated. I'm grateful to be in my home with a wonderful floor that is more friendly to my allergies. I have my elliptical and weights and my tennis racket still. Tomorrow, I'll focus on cleaning more.

The ritalin seems to be making flashbacks worse. But it helps me focus. Catch 22.

 🫂🫂  Spidey peel bedder 🌞 🌈 

Dear Elle, I hope you are well. Did you talk to the others, let them know there's no danger? I'm trusting that you did. I knew I could always count on you. I hope they're taking good care of you.  Ashes

 I think some lessons to be learned here are: Adverse medication reactions can and do happen in the real world Communication is important Medication can do strange things to the mind (Spravato, prazosin, Clozapine, mirapex, for example)

I'm afraid the hospitals are going to put me into collections until I feel more collected. Maybe I should call myself collect to Warn myself.

Love recalls and returns Love surrenders its wants to meet needs. Love bubbles and burns Love rejects greed.  Love has passion or it is not love It has patience and forbearance. It has repentance and humility. Love is honest and forgiving. Love looks forward and not past. Love is open, yet restrained It is reflective in absence Love is wise and true Because it is self-evident. Love needs and requires no recognition When unreturned, it is still love When unrecognized, it is still love. Love does not revert but only grows Love transfers and ignites When answered by hate, it is the love that is remembered.