Darkness Until Dawn

Apparently, unless and until these hospitals and Psychiatrists agree, I'm delusional and cruel and a liar. So you can treat this all as fiction. Though I don't understand why I can't quit if I'm simply delusional. But we're going with delusional. And they say I'm the wierd one. I'm the wierd one? You people won't leave me alone, but I'm the wierd one. I get to be so damn interesting. Public Health stay tuned. Local menace signing off. Nevermind conscience, we get delusional. Nevermind the people around me, we get delusional. No, its every treatment center from here to timbuktu and we get delusional. If nothing else, you'll understand the dangers of lots of different pills. That wasn't even a complete list. Crazy's overrated.

 I also think being honest is important. So I am sincerely hoping that the FBI is shutting down what I believe to be a racketeering operation in Greenville County.

I hope I am being kind by telling the truth about members of the community in my families. Because I see multiple state and federal laws being violated. I hope the FBI and Public Health are working with Springbrook and Vinewell to keep South Carolina safe for everyone. By Vinewell I meant Mindful Upstate but Vinewell can help. To me, one of the kindest things I can do is shut down a racketeering operation in Greenville County.

They won't stop wandering into traffic. No matter how hard I try, they keep wandering around. 

You know I can't do this without you guys and there's work to do.

When the world quiets down, I feel much more peaceful. I haven't heard from MIP or any doctors in a while. Calms the nerves. I even laughed a little. Tomorrow I'm going for coffee. Maybe then we can establish whether I'm of sound mind. I can bring the Ritalin. We can talk about whether it really helps. But I like my current meds. I think my quiz scores were lower. Sleeping is getting better. I feel like I'm eating well. I don't know who I'll have to talk to or what will happen. I don't know how this works. First time for everything. Hopefully the FBI is going through evidence. Identifying which professionals need some clean up. Who may need some secondary cleanup. They say there are victims. Of the medicalized perfectionism. So, they asked me to help. I figure, can't be a forensic accountant, might as well do some clean up. Hopefully, it'll be tidy. We gotta think of the young people. Give them a chance to shine.  Sunny came home with a list of name...

See, I was afraid of these doctors. They keep finding me and trying to drug me into silence. But some people won't let that happen. Because they say there are other victims. So the hospital has a problem. And now the FBI is here.  I was afraid to go to the Sheriff about the harassment and the drugs. I was afraid to go state. Some people are very connected. I needed Timmons to give me some confidence. I needed the medical board. I needed the records. The hospital with the name on the building, it's got a federal problem. There's a lot of laws in question. People are concerned. Others are trying to cover it up. Greenville County has a problem. Some people are angry about it. But I trust my childhood friend from the health dept. I trust the FBI. Some people want the drugs to stop. The medicalized perfection. They have asked me to say something. The name on the building thing. And I am very concerned. After two comas, I should be. That's why I say, dead or alive, it will st...