Darkness Until Dawn

I don ’t know you You’re not my friend Nor family, nor lover To me you’re nothing at all. Yet I open my world to you. You listen to my secrets. They play in the shadows of your mind And I wonder what you’re not telling me You seem to exist in another dimension In a place I simply cannot go Yet I struggle to reach you nonetheless never understanding why I try. Sometimes I want to tear you down, To belittle you and say hard truths To break your façade and draw your tears In a clumsy attempt to make you real. You’ve done to me not a single crime but I easily pretend you’ve done everything. I try to believe that hurting you is justice Yet I am powerless to pursue such righteousness I don’t want to feel anything when I look at you. I pursue complete apathy, though I fail every time. You’re not a part of my life so why are you in it? The simple truth is that you aren’t. I don’t deny that the adversary lies within me I know that you are more than a reflection I can warp my concept of you minu...

There upon the sandy shore beneath a smoky sky Past the telltale varied trappings where the tourists lie Beyond the rocks and midst the surf betwixt the land and sea You’ll find me at the island’s end… just the gulls and me.   The gulls at least they have their flock The waves the tide; the crabs the rocks I alone here have no purpose No flock to join, no fins to surf with.   I seek out peace at island’s end Only to face familiar questions again I find that doubts are my only companion As I search for signs but never find them   I can see in the distance the tourists cavort Delighting in words, sun and sport But the chaos of life has worn me down I jealously guard what peace I’ve found.   Certainly, I could pretend to belong Buy a few drinks and they’ll play along We’ll laugh and play and fight the tide Without a thought of duty or pride   But once I dreamt of following a creed Of being a crusader of great words and deeds. It seems to me many ages ago But I once...

Beware of me, for I learn from the Night His students adopt a different wrong and right His virtues are rage, paranoia and violence And here in the dark, they make perfect sense.   Can you see darkness falling my friend? The shadows dance in my mind again You know the darkness but have much to learn you still don't know how stop its return   This line and verse is a dangerous song All the rules change when the fading light’s gone Our pride and our strength we think will forestall The raging madness that summons the Fall.   There are efforts and promises all in abundance As you still pretend I’m still who you saw That person now lives only in dreams And I am no longer what I may seem   Because some have learned the strength of the Night And whether it’s wrong or whether it’s right They will return to the light’s domain But in the end, some shall remain.   I want nothing more than to save you from danger Even though we are now nothing but strangers Do you not see ...

 I miss me We used to go out and do fun things But all me and I seem to do anymore is hang out and argue about stupid stuff… And time passes by   I find myself searching for the days when I knew Less about the dangers of the mind I tell me that I think too much But, I insist, some things must be remembered as lessons learned   I can’t throw the past away like some outgrown piece of clothing Maybe I should, I tell myself But my memories are who I am If I throw them away… who am I?   I find that the memories have changed me So much that I don’t recognize me. Every day looking in the mirror And only seeing memories.   I hold onto the events long after the physical evidence has faded These events now exist only in my mind It’s a jealous mind, guarding the memories like treasure But I have to learn to let them go.   To know myself will I set fire to the past And banish the memories forever? Will I put that past behind me? So that I can be something more?   ...

I’ve forgotten only what I want to remember I’m trying so hard to recall that September When we were building the world anew You saw everything in me, and I in you.   You taught my eyes and mind to see A world, the same, but differently You showed me how to trust myself Instead of trying to be someone else.   And though you saw that me so clearly And helped me to try to simply be You didn’t see what was before you Or the entirety of what you signed up for   Now I know I must remember And blow to life hope’s dying ember There is so much that I’ve forgotten of that fall The Good, along with all that I don’t wish to recall   I’ve forgotten the smiles, both mine and yours Yet I remember the goodbyes, all the more All of the big things, small things, and more I remember the sorrow and have forgotten the joy   I know you’re still out there! And I wonder, am I? I wonder what happens after goodbye?   Do you remember, Can you remind me? What do I do… when only sorro...

It’s just wrong the way you do what you do. Do you break everything you touch? I’m going to see you down. (it’s plain to see you’re down).   Are you a stranger to my thoughts? I don’t think so! I’m so easy to fool. But you don’t scare me! (Please Don’t scare me!)   I never worry about you! (I’m anxious all the time!) Do you think I’m perfect? You’re Dreaming.   And when the sun rises I can see your eyes in the sky… The blue gray matching the color and mood.   Your friends aren’t your doctors and your doctors aren’t your friends. Do you believe that? I don’t think you do. But why wouldn’t you?   I’ll be there when you call, I’ll catch you when you fall. But you’ll never find me back again. Please don’t ever look for me back again.   You scare me now and then I’ll desert you now and again, I’ll be there when you call… Don’t ever look for me back again.   And you tumble… And you fall. ©️ 1998, Accountec, LLC

   You found me traveling in the wood Splashing through the leaves I did not know the path I trod Though I was confident of my direction   For I had a compass in my hand that always led me true Eventually our paths will part and friendship fades to memory I ask one simple thing of you: Think of all the good I fought for … And forget the fights, hurt feelings, and slights   They came at first quite unexpected Looking back at me with warmth And though they held no recognition As time passed, familiarity would grow.   As the days passed, I became used to their presence And they, mine. We conspired together to battle the night   Gradually, I found myself relying on them more They became my confidence, my inspiration At times they pained me Yet I never tired of their company.   Upon occasion, they would distance A smoldering in those faded spheres Yet tempted as I was to learn the reasons I gave my word; I would not trespass.   I could not venture beyo...